her place.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

HEY this will be the last time i'm going to blog already. thank god for letting me know everything, and letting me noe how fortunate i am. :D i feel so sorry for ya girl.. well u 2 make a perfect pair. haha.. :D

she left her mark
@ 4:36 AM

Saturday, March 26, 2005

have i gotten over it or have i not? or maybe i'm just numb to it.
when i saw the tags he left at xuan's blog, i actually felt something althou they're not a bit related to me. n all coz its written by him. i guess i've not plucked up the courage to face the reality. but i'm working on it already. i juz needed a bit more time. at least i felt better then before n no longer feeling i'm the person with the worst fate in the world. all i need is just a little more....

she left her mark
@ 9:20 PM

Friday, March 11, 2005

have been too distracted for the past 3 mths. i wondered what i've been doing, i've actually spent 3 mths sobbing over someone who doesn deserves it all. and look wad i've brought to myself.. lousy results..
i must really buck up.. its not worth wasting my future over someone like this. if i continue in this state, i'll really regret for the rest of my life. its really time to settle down and be more rational. my world doesn juz revolve ard him, i've much important things to achieve in life. and that is getting into UNIVERSITY!
tmr will be a gd start.. a new beginning. i still have time to catch up. its just a few mths away, and i'll be free of all these troubles. ENDURE!! my future lies in my hand... i'm gonna return back to the time when he had not appeared in my life..
but still.. i believe in...................................."what comes ard, goes ard"...................................... we'll wait and see...

she left her mark
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Thursday, March 10, 2005

i finally found out i'm really gd in nth, no talents, no achievements, no fittess, no style, juz nth at all.. failed my GP again, as usual.. juz tat tis is really bad, worst of all the failed papers. tml gonna get back bio paper, tink gonna fail again. n i'm gonna fail my maths too.. haha.. wad a joke! having been in JC for 1 yr, don tink i had passed my subjects for more den 10 times. and As & Bs just seem so far away, to think i still wanna be a dentist. well maybe in my next life.
sometimes i wonder, am i too stupid or am i juz too lazy? or it's juz a combination of both? can't seems to be doin well in anything i did.. i wonder when will tis end? end of tis yr? i guess the yr when i took my results wld really be the end of me..

she left her mark
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

nths gonna change a thing anymore... i wished i cld be more kind hearted to forgive them and forget everything. shld force myself to delete all the memories i had, and juz wash my hands off them. except for all the best, is there anything else more i can say? i guessed not.. i need to break free from all these memories. i need to get someone new.. i'm tired... really tired...
tears still rolled.. but no one cares. sometimes i feel like a loser... wad a loser i am...
this blog has too many of my sad memories.. wished someday i'll not need to confide to this blog anymore.. i guess tat someday comes when someone nicer enters my life again...

she left her mark
@ 6:22 AM

juz had the feelings of being left out everytime. is it that i'm over sensitive or are they too obvious?
althou sometimes i don say, it doesn mean i do not mind. i wished i could be involved in every of ur talks, n i wished i'm not always the one being neglected to be asked to go out. maybe its not being neglected, its juz tat i'm always being asked too late...
well, maybe there's juz something wrong with me. maybe it wld be better for me to talk lesser and just walk alone.

she left her mark
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Monday, March 07, 2005

everything was a lie!! y did ya console me when u've already decided to get back to him! i tot u were nice, i tot all the consolations u made was true. all of u all r in cahoots! u all r juz out to hurt me! does hurting some1 innocent tat fun??
and YOU!! if u've nv loved any1 else except her den y hurt others! both of u r the same!! i'm juz the stepping stone of the whole thing! u all don understand the hurt tat u've inflicted on me! or u all noe its juz fun laughter peace n joy when both of u r tgt. i wish u 2 all the best! coz both of u r a perfect match for each other.
seriously i hate u and u.... i don wanna be nice anymore. i've had enough!! but be glad tat i hate u and u, coz the process of hating is hurtful. i hope u and u are happy over there!
i'm so tired already... i've spent a quarter of the yr crying over u, i've spent a quarter of the yr looking at the memories and wonder if they were there and if they were true. i wanna get out of this!! how long more do i need to get out of this! nobody understands...

she left her mark
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Monday, February 07, 2005

P4 and LIQI!!! I LOVE U ALL!!.. haha...
omg.. they're really my dearies, they thought of such a nice plan to celebrate be early bday with me..
dear liqi called me n acted she was crying n demand me to go find her immediately. wheni was juz to open the door and find her, she n P4 popped out in front of my doorstep with a bday cake.. omg i was so touched. i kept hitting liqi as she nearly scared the freak out of me!! haha.. neverthless, i really appreciate their thoughts very much.. this is the most special bday i've ever had...
THANK YOU!!! :D

she left her mark
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